Miniature disasters and minor catastrophes
"I'm scared it's not good at all."
"Exactly what i'm thinking!!"
Apparently, if you take KT Tunstall and add Butterfly Boucher together with her inside your fancy little Media Player with the pink design and the Vodka in your hand typing with the other one of yours it seems like they are both the same. Minus or plus a drumming kit and rattles. From whoever point of view you want to see - or moreso hear - it.
Today i think i've let down one of my dear good friends. One of those who goes through a saturday night with the most obnoxious bunch of tits one could gather together because it's your birthday. One of those kids who cheers you up with a simple, yet effective "God you fucking annoy the fucking shit out of me today you fucktwit." after four hours with random people surrounding you who pretend they like you but really, they don't ( the reason for this dislike is, however, not that you're a fucktwit, like said friend has pointed out correctly, but rather because they prefer their friends dressed in Swiss designer clothes rather than old green leopard sweaters but prefer to remain silent about this and speak differently than they act ) .
So yeah, i think i've let that girl down. Instead of a night filled with random randomisities which she likes so much ( and are enhanced with approximately twenty shots of tequila and two bottles of cheap beer plus a rum&orange juice ) that she'd give her uterus for it she has to spend the night taking a bath and watching South Park.
And all just because I can't get off my arse and do what makes her happy. It's not a case of "I have to cause that's what friends do", in case you where thinking. It's more a case of "I know what makes her happy why can't i just?"
There's money reasons of course, which are basically making the next two months for me
But honestly i always get around money wise in the end and that's just an excuse.
I should have gone, really. And i feel utterly shit for it. There's no way to pretend i didn't let her down, there's no way to make myself feel better for not just doing what i'm supposed to do.
It's a shit feeling i tell ya. It really is.
